Whether it’s due to a bad day, grief, or depression, most people have felt lonely. I suffer from major depressive disorder so I am quite familiar with a deep and lagging feeling of being alone. Sometimes it seems to take on a life of its own – it grips on with its long and mighty tentacles and won’t let go. Well, that’s how I feel about it and I know that, ironically, I’m not alone in my notion.
I have a painting in my home of a path – just a path flanked by a fence and trees, leading to who knows where – perhaps a land of fog. For the longest time, my interpretation, of the painting was one in which I saw myself on that path … alone and lonely.
There’s a truth that my feelings project on my soul and then there’s the real truth – The Truth, and that is The Truth that I trust and have faith in. Unfortunately, there are times when I let myself be guided by how I feel rather than what I know. When living in the world of my sentiments I exist in a foggy world of sadness and loneliness. When living in The Truth, I know that despite what I might see or feel, I am never alone.
I can honestly testify that even though I am unable to see or touch him, Jesus Christ saved me at the point where I was contemplating suicide, over a decade ago. Though there are times when those feelings want to overtake me, in His strength I know I have the power to overcome those perceptions. I know that I am never alone. I hang on, through faith, to the eternal reassurance that I can never be separated from His love. Today, when I see myself on that path I see two of us. Me and Him – together forever. I am never alone. Never.
You don’t ever have to be alone. Put your hope in Him and He will renew your strength. Seeing is not believing; believing is seeing.
“And behold, I am with you always, to the end of age.” Matthew 28:20b ESV.
Blue skies darken. A stark gray moves in slowly as the clouds engulf the sun. Cold winds pass through me. The day is hardened. A new season begins – trials and tribulation abound.My heart beats for you and I trust.
My enemy stands against me, tormenting me. Fear knocks – I dare not open the door. Announcing a grim destiny – but you offer eternity.
My heart beats for you and I turn.
Hanging on. Counting on – your saving words. I battle from victory. Believing is seeing. He relents. You remain.
My heart beats for you and I rest.
The light of dawn shines forth from the east – a refreshing mist … a rainbow of promise. Your presence follows.
My heart beats for you and I worship.
From existence without life – my past washed away by your love. Forgiven. Restored. Reconciled.
My heart beats for you and I rejoice.
In your arms, your strong right hand – your protection, your healing, your promises and peace. Life reborn.