Unveiling Hope

A candid look behind the veil




Another day has dawned. Tribulation has awakened me from our nocturnal tryst. Sadness clangs its cymbals urging me to rise – it reverberates hopelessness throughout the day. My heart is ripped open, laid bared for what feels like a final viewing. The constant trickle of tears erodes my faith. Pain has seared me. My body roams the earth to and fro searching for what it knows not. I feel alone. Even my mind detests me. Words have stopped my breath; I gasp for air. Loves hides and I seek, but it is elusive. I’m one of many yet I’ve never been so alone. What I know and what I feel clash – striving in different directions. My mind flutters about; I must hang on – one more hour, perhaps minutes. But, as the sun sets so my hope is dashed. Maybe tomorrow? If I can just …

Will I ever get through this? Will this grain of hope sustain me? Will these tears ever stop? Will the enemy of my thoughts relent? Will the ugliness of introspection sojourn in my bed forever? I can’t hear you; God, are you listening?

I have loved you from the beginning. I hold your hand while you sleep and stroke your hair. The tears you cry stain my cheeks as they moisten your pillow. I have never left your side. Your cries to me ring through the heavens – your prayers brought to me, one at a time, on the wings of angels. I whisper in your ear, “Don’t listen to those voices.” You can’t hear me because you listen to the voice of your enemy with great travail. Why do you hold on to the very thing I am trying to remove from your life. Don’t you know how much I love you? Let go. Please trust me. I can take that grain of hope and make a mountain of faith from it, but you must let go of what you’re holding on to. Have I not yet shown you that I am trustworthy? Have you not yet understood that there is nothing you could ever do to make me love you less? 

You think I’ve let you down – I don’t listen – I don’t hear your prayers. My precious child, if only you knew how I treasure your petitions and want to give you what you request – but I cannot. I am a loving and faithful father and I promised, from the day I knew you, that I would always do what is best for you. I have protected you from the unimaginable. I have saved you from unspeakable pain, pain that I did not even spare my Son from. The noise of this world is a lament for my love. The hole in your heart is a place that only I can fill. If only you would trust in me, I would give you the peace you need. I am more lonely for you in this very minute than you have ever been for anyone all the days of your life. Turn toward me. No one can love you like I do. Seek me with all your heart and I will give you the desires of yours. I’m listening; are you?

10 thoughts on “God, Are You Listening?

  1. Simply put, this is hauntingly beautiful.

    1. Hope says:

      Thank you beautifuldreamer. So very kind of you. Hope

  2. Debbie says:

    Oh my heart! You have a rare ability, my friend, to put into words the thoughts, prayers and cries of many. As I read, I was reminded of David in the Psalms.

    1. Hope says:

      I think we all feel like David did many times throughout our lives.

  3. Pete Rambo says:

    Wonderfully touching. Truly we live in a world that paints thin veils to hide the real aches we bear in our souls. Takes so little to rip that open and expose raw flesh…

    May Abba heal you and bring wholeness in His time. Lean on Him.

    1. Hope says:

      Thank you for your kind words. Hope

  4. Evelyn says:

    The heart cry of so many of us. Beautifully written.

    1. Hope says:

      You were beautifully written, on the palm of His hand.

      Sent from Hope’s iPhone

  5. Kedoshim Ministries says:

    Sometimes the loudest thing in our lives is the silence of the walls. It’s beautiful moments like this when you can know He is wooing you to Himself. Captivating your heart, captivated by you, and daring you to surrender. Its a sweet release, and on the other side you find a love like no other. You are a wonderful writer. Thank you for sharing.

    1. Hope says:

      Thank you for your kind words Bithiah. I am learning that sometimes I need to realize that I am not alone, but set apart and there is a big difference.

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