Hiding and Seeking

ImageI remember a time, I was not much more than a toddler, when my favourite uncle used to play hide and seek with me. He’d say, “You go hide; I’ll count to 10 and then I’ll look for you.” I remember having butterflies in my stomach while he counted. I couldn’t wait for him to find me. Sometimes (most of the time), I’d giggle loud enough for him to hear me just so I’d be found – I made it as easy for him as I could – so I thought. The truth is, I was always hiding in plain sight and when he would finally “find” me – he would hold me and tickle me and make me feel like I was his favourite little girl. I knew I was loved and so did he.

There have been times in my adult life when I have longed to be someone’s favourite. There have been times when I have felt so alone, rejected and abandoned that the pain was palpable. And, in all honesty, during many of those times I wondered where God was during my time of need. I needed Him and He was silent. Where was He?

There is a depth to God’s love that we will never fully know in this life.We only understand in part – there is more to Him than what we know or read of Him. Consider the profoundness of His great love for us and yet He gives us the choice of deciding for ourselves if we desire to draw near to Him. His love is steadfast, faithful and without condition. We cannot begin to fathom how He longs for us and yet He hides Himself from us and waits patiently for us to seek Him – to seek His face – to seek intimacy with Him and yet He doesn’t need us; we need Him. He is for us and never out of reach to those who seek with all their heart. The truth is though we seek Him, for our sake, He hides in plain sight.

“But from there you will seek the Lord your God, and you will find Him if you search for Him with all your heart and all your soul.” Deuteronomy 4:29

3 thoughts on “Hiding and Seeking

  1. Beautifully written! It is really amazing that God allows us to choose whether or not to respond to His pursuing of us. For those of us who have known abuse, having a choice feels wonderfully freeing.

    • Indeed – having a choice to love and be loved is really the essence of love. Thank you for dropping by.

      On Sun, May 5, 2013 at 4:04 PM, Unveiling Hope

      • Yes, if I look back over my life, the periods when I felt alone and rejected, were the times I made a conscious decision to hide away from the world. In the past, before I came to know who God is, I use to see my hiding, rejection, lonely phases as not me hiding, but, God hiding from me, because, I failed to do what He wanted. I was reminded yesterday, in studying the story of Esther, that I can choose the way I see circumstances. That is, I can decide and choose to either see God in them, or, I can look at the things that happen in my life, as mere coincidence. If I see God in everything, then I have hope and joy ,that, there is something better and, it also makes me feel that someone cares. Today as I seek that deeper intimacy with Him, I am constantly blown away at how deeply He loves us.

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